then & now

I often analyze the reasons behind “normal” everyday behaviors and the meanings behind our actions. Some might call me crazy, because when I really think about the reasons behind why we do certain things, I struggle to find a true, valid point. And that is scary. Actually, terrifying. Does anyone actually know what they’re doing? Because I sure as hell don’t.

When I look around, at least where I am now, I see a bunch of college age ‘kids’ aimlessly trying to make it through the next week. Dozens of assignments, tests, papers, research projects, all for what? The average person would attest that they are in college to get a degree, so that they can pursue a certain career. Well, in my opinion, the 10 page paper I have to write and the multiple finals I have coming up, actually mean nothing.

Are we actually doing anything in school? Like, actually doing anything? Think about it. Do you actually know what you are learning? Or, are you just memorizing it for the next test? Why are you doing this? Why are you here? Do you even enjoy it? Is this all really just for a piece of paper that says you have a degree?

Are we really getting what we need to succeed, after this part of our lives is said and done? I can’t really answer that, because I don’t know, but I do know one thing, learning comes from doing.

Everyone is different in the way that they learn and in the way that they succeed. So then why are we all forced to be educated the same way? I understand being a well rounded person and having common knowledge, but when it comes to actually surviving in the ‘real world’ none of this is really going to matter.

Once all of us get to wherever we end up, we are going to be learning as we go. You can’t be fully prepared to take on anything in this world, life itself is a learning process. Life is simply a game and our everyday choices decide what happens. The need to be perfect and to have everything figured out is quite useless and extremely stressful. Life usually doesn’t go the way we plan it to and sometimes that’s the fun part. You never know what you’re gonna get.

Most of the time without even knowing, everyone kind of just follows the rules (myself included) to get where they want to be, because that’s what we think “were supposed to do”. But where did this even originate from?

Who’s actually making us do these things? If you don’t do what you’re supposed to do, or in other words follow the norms of society, then most of the time you don’t even get a chance to do what you want. And then sometimes you could have done everything “right”, but if someone doesn’t give you a chance or an opportunity to prove yourself than what was the point of all of the work in the first place?

One of the craziest things about life though is that we can just decide to do anything. And as long as you have that will and determination you can get anything you want, but it’s the journey along the way that makes you, you.

“Most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wished for. Maybe, you’ll get more than you ever could’ve imagined. Who knows where life will take you, the road is long, and in the end… the journey is the destination.”